4 posts tagged “reflection”

I still feel that there I have a great deal of improving to do before I can say there is only one thing left to improve on.  I know that this blog is about the single thing I most need to improve on, but I feel like its nearly the same questions.  Singling one aspect of my teaching out as the worst is difficult.  So many choices.  I'll pass on things like varying my questioning techniques and classroom management (I haven't really had much practice in this, so it very well could be awful...) and talk about lesson planning.

I have noticed that I have become increasingly efficient in my lesson planning, and am able to write better less in far less time than was required a month ago.  However, I still think that it takes me quite a bit of time and would like to reduce this as much as possible, without sacrificing the quality of the lesson.  The quality of the lesson, is the other issue I would like to improve on.  This, too, is better than a month ago.  However, there is certainly room for improvement.  I need to differentiate my modes of instruction more and find ways to students to teach themselves while I watch.  I'm still stuck in the "college lecture" format of teaching, which is terrible, especially when you're not teaching college.  Eighth graders can take about 10 minutes of lecture before coma.  I've also fallen into a rut of showing video clips in almost every lesson.  While I think that using media is generally good, I need to mix it up more and include different forms of media.  Beyond the fact that I think variety is better than the same thing day after day, I  don't even know what kinds of resources I'll have at Chastain, so I can't rely on having a projector.

Overall, I'm pretty happy with the lesson on the life cycle of stars that I videotaped.  I think that the students understand the sequence of events and the scale on which it occurs.  I don't really know what else to say about the overall effectiveness of the lesson... Oh, they were pretty engaged in an activity where I had them make a kind of time line for the life cycle of the sun and then make an analogous time line for the life cycle of humans.  They were working on this before lunch and when I told them to line up for lunch, all four of the kids stayed in their seats and kept working.  I had to repeat myself for them to stop working and stand up.  Perhaps I'm wrong, but I'm taking that as a good sign of interest.

I feel really uncomfortable with the rubric and assessing myself based on its parameters.  That's a huge problem I have with the way things are at Holly Springs.  I really have no bearing on where I stand compared to other people and where I should be.  That's not completely true, as I have been assessed, but I'd like to see other people teach (besides just those in my classroom) and also see how others are evaluated so that I can calibrate my expectations to those of the evaluators and TEAM teachers.  I feel like a process like that would not only expose me to a number of other teaching styles, creative ideas, and classroom dynamics, but also would help me to more objectively evaluate my own teaching on any given day.  As it stands now, basically my only two criteria for the effectiveness of my lesson are: 1) did the kids answer my informal assessment questions correctly most of the time, and 2) were they active participants with a little excitement in their body language.  If the answer to these two questions is "yes", then I feel like my lesson was effective.  But I've had lessons where the answers were "sort of" to these 2 questions and received favorable evaluations.  I just wish I had more experience with the evaluation process and was better able to apply it for my own benefit and the benefit of my colleagues, now that we're doing daily informal assessment/comment sheets for other teachers in our classroom.

That being said (sorry for the diatribe), I can recognize a couple things about this particular lesson.  First, everybody is right, and I recognize it while I'm teaching as well.  I talk too fast.  Shocking, I know.  I've heard that this is one of the more common problems, and I definitely have it.  In this particular lesson I didn't stumble over my own tongue, but that has happened.  It's not even nerves, either.  I just want to get stuff out and fit a lot on my lesson and just cram information into their heads and I need to slow down, plan a little bit less information into my lesson, and take my time going over things and repeating them.  I've started to do this, but I still notice that when I'm asked a question that isn't directly related to the lesson, or one that I may not be expecting, I kind of jump back into hyper drive and need to cut that out.  The second issue is my time management.  In this lesson I had two pretty good activities that were both cut a little short because I took too long on the Do Now and lectured too much.   Again, this goes to slowing everything down and planning less into the lesson, but its taking some getting used to for me.  On the one hand, I'm making sure my kids really understand things, which can slow me up, but on the other hand I cram too much stuff in the lesson, so I need to balance that out.

Don't go don't go don't go don't go

Just kidding.  It has been invaluable to have the second years here with us as we begin our journey as teachers.  They're help and never ending generosity with their time and ideas have helped me when I couldn't think of anything and also helped me to think of things on my own the next time around.  So thanks.

What I've learned:

1) Keep the students involved in different ways.
One thing I have struggled with somewhat so far is the transition from an educational environment that is almost entirely lecture based to one in which lecturing is borderline sinful.  I am a sinner.  This was brought to my attention by my second year and (in my case) MTC alumna quickly and has vastly improved my teaching and helped me to create more interesting and engaging lessons for my middle school students.  I still struggle, especially in the summer school setting, with trying to squeeze as much information into a lesson as I can, which tends to mean a little too much lecturing, but I'm getting better at it.

2) You WILL want to quit.  Trust us.
Especially before teaching, I was asking a lot of the second years about their experience of their first year.  Of those that I asked, nearly all said that they wanted to quit at some point.  While this is not something that will help with my teaching technique, per se, it is definitely a nice piece of information that will help with my sanity.  I am confident that the MTC will teach me how to be a good teacher.  My doubts lie about my ability are connected to the fact that this is an entirely new experience for me in an entirely different place than I have spent the other 22 years of my life.  I like to hear about the bad things.  I ask the second years what they did wrong and how bad it was and what it was like and all of that stuff because I want to know what the dangerous things look like so that I can avoid them.  If I walk blindly into an oasis, thats ok.  I need to avoid the quicksand.  Knowing that I WILL want to quit and leave this God forsaken state and its horrible educational system filled with rotten children is incredibly valuable information to me.  Knowing that those thoughts are coming will help me bare down and push through to the renewed appreciation for the beauty of this place, the hardworking people in the system, and good kids that really do try.

3) It's the little things.
Don't talk so fast.  Don't turn your back to the students, they will throw things.  If you think it's important for them to know, write it down.  Model it first.  After posing a question, wait for the uncomfortable silence, then wait a little bit longer, then call on someone......... etc.  All great advice, and there's so much of it!  I am happy with my progress so far and I think I'm on my way to being able to survive in the fall, but there are still a couple big things and a boatload of little things to work on, refine, and polish before I can consider myself a good and confident teacher.  I am thankful to all of the second years who have taken the time to observe me and give me feedback on my teaching.  The second year and alumna in my room are great daily guides to improve my teaching, but its always nice to have new eyes watching and picking up on different weaknesses and pointing out different strengths to help me be the best instructor I can be and point out that I still don't have a clue.  I thought that humility would be important before I got here, but I'm convinced its essential, now.  I owe it to the second years and other evaluators who have offered me criticism, and always constructively.  It's not fun to here, but it's helping (I think).  Keep telling me the little things and I'll keep working on them.

I won't talk about the non-teaching related things I've learned from the second years.. that's not assigned.  Nevermind, here are a few that may or may not be associated with teaching:

I can't do 100 push-ups in 15 minutes, but I'm only a half liar.
I can hold my breath while crossing the Mississippi River between Memphis and Little Rock.
I've built houses without roofs.
Come to think of it, I may be currently working on a beautiful place in Cincinnati right now.
I am not as good at skeet shooting as I thought.
Ben Guest has a silent classroom.
Volleyball is a lot more fun than I thought.
Wagon Wheel is a great song.
It is possible to have that much enthusiasm.

Since I came to Mississippi and met with other people in the program, particularly second years, I have tried to ascertain just what the next two years would be like.  Specifically, I have tried to figure out just what I may have gotten myself into.  I've asked a lot of questions about the program in general, the classes, the schools in which we'll be teaching, and what it's all like.  Delta Autumn is nice because it is basically a FAQ designed to help me deal with my first year of teaching.  I found it to be a relatively pleasant read with a lot of good tips and information.

The chapter that I found most helpful was probably "Getting Ready for the First Week of School."  Besides general anxiety and concern about things like classroom management and time management, that first week is probably a specific thing that I am nervous about.  I understand how critical that first week is as a way to set the tone in terms of classroom management, structure, and starting to earn respect from my students.  But how to do that is what this chapter talks about.  The subtitles to the chapter outline all the little things that I'm concerned about remembering.  After teaching my first lesson on Friday (on the Solar System), I feel pretty confident that I'll be ok in the lesson planning/teaching information part.  From what I've gathered so far, everybody struggles, at least at first, with classroom management, so I know that will be an area to focus on.  The thing that doesn't seem to be talked about much is the procedural/administrative aspect of teaching.  In this chapter, Delta Autumn addressed these questions and, perhaps more importantly, will provide a nice template of things for me to do while I'm at my school preparing a few days before classes begin.

I'm bad at asking questions sometimes or remembering to ask questions that I have.  The laundry list of questions provided will help me to gather pertinent information for my first year of teaching.  Sam Williams, be ready with answers to those.  Those things that are school specific (ie who to talk to about this and where to go to do that) are especially things that our MTC classes can't really address but has at least reminded us to find out about for ourselves through Delta Autumn.

One complaint, thought, might be that this book is completely focused on the 'work' side of teaching as a first year teacher.  It would have been kind of nice, although certainly not necessary, for there to be a suggestion of things that those before us have done to blow off steam, recover, recharge, and generally maintain sanity while dealing with the transition to the South and teaching here.  Besides this small and, perhaps, nit-picky complaint, I found the book to be informative, helpful, and worth the time I took to read it.